Tom again, but just a little bit. More life this time.

Today I went to the zoo, just like I said. But I will talk about that later! Right now I'm gonna write about Tom (wooow original, it's not like the biggest part of my posts are about him or something like that xd)...

These last few days I had a lot of time to think about everything. Over think everything you might say. I've been thinking about my future and about what I want to do in my life. My head continues saying that I need someone to talk to, but something in me doesn't agree..

My future shouldn't be usual, I want to travel just like almost everyone around me. I think they aren't going to travel and I want to travel so I will travel! But how do I get the money I need to travel..? If I had a blog with a lot of viewers everyday I could get some money by blogging about my live and the places I visit. An other thing I could do is marry someone who is rich, but that's more a wish kind of thing than a possible reality.

Tom has hurt me a lot, but every time I tried to forgive him and every stupid little word he said. And I still try to get back to how it was, but now I now that that isn't possible. I hate to say it but I need that one guy who's there for me when life gets hard, hugs me and says: "you'll be alright", gives me this cute little kisses on my forehead. That's what I need right now. Nothing more, nothing less. 

And I found this guy and I really like him, but as soon as he shows that he likes me, I push him away. By ignoring him or say something that hurts his feelings. I just get scared I think, it's not the boy, it's me.

Probably you already figured out that this last part is about Daniel, so now I don't have to tell you guys what my problem is right now.

I can't write him a little letter with what's on my mind. Maybe it will work, probably not..

For now goodnight and sleep well,

Xx hailey