Lies

At the moment im very frustrated about something. Or to be more precise, someone.
There is a boy, I'll call him Tom ( don't want to use his real name) and we used to be very close. We even were kind of in love.. But now, now we don't realy talk to each other, I hate it..
I miss him, well not realy miss him but it's more like I feel that he's not here for me anymore. It bothers me.

A few weeks ago tom told me that he has something on his mind and that he needs to tell me about it. But then he started to ignore me, not realy ignore but he just doesn't pays any attention to me.

I don't know why but I have a feeling that says me to leave him, to let him drown in his own word. Just ignore him, he's not worth this pain.
It may sound weird, but could it be possible, that he's in love with a good friend of mine..? Could it be possible that she doesn't want me to know about it? I think that maybe I wouldn't even talk to her anymore, just because of hidding this for me. I know she knows that there is something wrong with him. And I know that she ain't gonna talk to me about it..

I hate this! This is hurting me! Maybe it's better if I'll jump of a bridge.. Maybe it is all my fault..

(sorry for al the writing mistakes and stuff I'm not able to concentrate me right now..)