feathers

22-05-14

Hellow world!
Just wanted to tell that I love feathers and bought this a few days ago. I was in Maastricht as a school trip. Saw it and I loved it instantly.

Sweet dreams
xxx Hailey


23-05-14
Today I had them in my ears and I think that about 20 people said something about it. All positive of course!
That was it for today..

Byebyee xh

What about... me?

The last few weeks have been very confusing for me. So, I'M SORRY I DIDN'T POST ANYTHING! But I'm gonna change that!

But first I'll tell you a bit about everything, starting with one of my best friends who is back in a relation ship with her ex boyfriend. To make it clear to you, before he was her boyfriend, he was one of my best friends.. But that changed when he fall in love with me, I was very insecure of myself and i couldn't handle it. I told him that I didn't like him/that I didn't want a boyfriend. He said he understood but he had a hard time with the whole situation.

After a few weeks he started to be rude to me and then i heard of some one of my class that he was in a relation ship with one of my best friends. I was happy for them, but s disappointed that they did Not tell me.
They where in love for about six months, then they got into a fight and it was over. He wasn't good for her, she has been very sad and she even got to a point that i thought she was going to commit suicide.

Now one year later, she has had 3 relationships that failed and she is back to him, the boy that in my opinion isn't good for her.


So that is one of the confusing things right now. I don't know how to react when I see them together.
The rest is for later, now I want to write about something that I like.

Photo's!
The next few days I'm going to make some photo's of things that I liked when I was a little child, I'm not completely sure what will be on those pictures. But I'm sure I will have fun making them!
At least I want to make a photo of a child; playing dress up, making a tent (of blankets and other stuff you can find in and around your house), play on a swing and lay down in the grass.
And I really really really hope that the little sister of my boyfriend will be my model! She is soooo cute! Really adorable <3 I'll make sure that her face is not recognizable.

I look forward to it!

Xx Hail

Long time no see

Hey you all,

The last time that I wrote on this blog, was maybe 2 or months ago. I wanted to write, but there was just nothing to write about. There still isn't. Well, I could write about all the things that are going on in my life, or about why I hate myself on this moment or something different that isn't that happy. BUT I don't really want to bother you with something like that.

So here I am again, writing about nothing, wondering why everything that I want to do goes wrong.
Asking myself some hard questions and being very annoying. The last few days I have been very mad. A small thing could make me scream and ruin everything.

Last night as I sat next to my boyfriend who was asleep, I figured out that I have to change something. I do not know how I am going to do this, but I will. Maybe I'm going to the park tomorrow and I'll invite him, we make some photos and laugh about the stupid mistakes of the other people in the park. Maybe that will be my tomorrow, maybe it wont.

But for now I say goodbye

-xxx- Hailey

New layout!

Hey Guys!
The most of you sure already have noticed that the layout has changed, I like it do you too?
It makes me smile, the little kitty in the upper right corner. It has an calm look (if that's how you call it in English..)

I'm sorry this is the second time in a short period that I post a short blog update.. But i't just that I don't have a lot to tell you right-now..

love,
Haileyy

Imagine

Imagine that everyday when you wake up you feel alone, that when you look around yourself you see a room -your room- but that it doesn't feel like yours. That you look out of your window and you see the sun rising, it is supposed to be a beautiful day, but that you can't enjoy the feeling of the sun shining.

Imagine that when you feel alone, people say "Why? We are here for you, aren't we?" but then you remember that you can't tell them the truth. You can't tell them why you feel the way you do 'cause it will hurt them a lot.

Imagine that you really want to talk to them and tell them everything that's on you mind, but you just can't.

Imagine me, the 'happy'  girl, wondering why she is still alive, thinking everyday and night "Why do I keep going on? Why do I do this to myself?" but she doesn't know the answer. She just goes on.

-Hailey-

URL Change

My URL has been changed, maybe you wanna know why, well it's because I thought it was to long.. Wow such a good reason xd

I've got nothing to say so I'm just writhing this little post..

Xx Hailey

Good grades and other great stuff!

Today I have a reason to be happy, I've got an A+ for a subject that I'm not very good at! And in about 1,5 month I will no longer have my braces! Yeay!
My kind of boyfriend is being so nice to me and Wednesday we're going to eat something and then watch a movie! Of course it will be a horror movie haha, I like horror movies only when I am with someone. When i get scarred i want to be able to get really close to someone so I am no longer scared ^^

Sorry for the crappy grammar and sentences. Me being so tired..

Love,
Hailey Martin